Hey guys well i think this will be the 1st post from me since 2010.Lol haha it has been ages right haha i know. Well so sorry because that time i was really busy preparing for my exam and chinese new year haha.. Here will be just a short update. I going to have my trial exam soon on the 19th of April and my government test on the 10th of May. Then i will be having my real GCE exam in May. It very rush for me and i dont think i will have enough time to finish doing my revision. Well life is kinda stress for me and i still praying hard that everything will be going fine for me haha
that all for now guys haha bye bye
have a nice day yea!! haha :)
it 4am now.. i dunno what am i doing here. i guess i got insomnia haha..
anyway goodnite and sweetdream guys haha
byebye haix... haha
Fml haha
Sorry guys, another sad poem from me. Why all this thing happening to me? I feel really sad and helpless.
In depths of night,
I think of you,
Like waves crushing the silent shore,
You kept coming back,
Disturbing my sleep,
Until the break of dawn...
In depths of night,
Your image,
Fills my empty room,
Bringing back our days,
Our dreams,
Nobody else could understand...
Like sunset fading at dusk,
You left me in solitude,
My life ends,
When memories,
Are scattered,
Like dust...
Today is xmas and merry xmas to everyone to read my blog.
It's a lonely xmas for me. And this suddenly come into my mind.
Continuously seeking fulfillment
Only to have war rage on
Where is the peace in anguish?
Tirelessly I search for a treaty
Empty handed and exhausted
Constantly stumbling through life
Missing a vital part of my soul
Calling for you endlessly
Only to be met with haunting echoes
Trying to push away thoughts of you
But my heart refuses to compromise
Even my flesh aches for you
My spirit seems weak and daunted
But still I wait for you...
I really had a bad week this week and i dont like and enjoy this week at all. haha i thought everything would be better by today, sunday which is the last day of this week. It was ok actually and i start planning since morning.. I get everything done early in the morning. Like my car wash rountine. just because i wanna go out and have fun today. To release all my unhappiness in this one whole week. I tried to plan things out.. planing.. planing.. planing.. In the end things cant work out again. Fml.
I think 'Fml' this phrase really suit my life for now loh. I feel like everythin just turn out like not the way i wanted. Felt kinda disappointed days after days.Fml. I feel that there lots of things had changed but i'm the only one still keep to my old mind and hang on somethings and some hopes. I think it's time for me to do some changes because i really dont like the way i been treated for now. I really got many problems recently and there is no one for me to share my problems with. Fml.
tonight i will be all alone again at home. hate it alot but what to do. Fml.
this will just be a short update from me haha.. i guess this will a better post compared to previous post because today i will not going to talk about how sad is my day. today my day considered ok. But i didnt eat anything for lunch today haha.. kinda hungry but really no mood and appetide to eat anything this afternoon. haha
Tonight i went to Sharing Planet to have dinner with my mum haha.. I ordered the most exp chicken chop there and my mum ordered Double cheesyland haha. Felt so happy haha..
tell you guys something haha.. Whenever i feel down, i will be happy again by eating my fav food. I spent the most on food because food and eating can cheer me up haha.
My mum suggest we go Mr. Ho at crown square for xmas dinner haha.
Mum: Eh let go Mr. Ho for xmas dinner?
Me: The food there is kinda exp.
Mum: You chia me eat right?
Me: *silent* urm can. but loan from you 1st.
Mum: where got like that?
Me: can. i will pay u back afer i start working.
Mum: ohh alright then. Sure. Pay triple. Deal?
Me: Deal hahaha...
Both of us laughed. Actually i like to talk to my mum haha..
Well that all about my day today. Goodbye..
Actually i wanted to make things better today but everything is screwed up again. Fml. I always think that i can make things better but i always wrong about that. I only know how to make things worse but not better. Sigh haix.. i think i dunno how to be happy anymore. i dunno who the one can be there for me. I always hope for things can turn out like how i wanted, but disappointment come again and again. i started to afraid to give any hope in everthing, started to lose my confidence in everything. i feel that i should be alone and by myself.Fml.
My life is like getting worse days by days. if only there is someone who understand and would come to me and comfort me, share my problems. I think no one will be there for me. I hate loneliness the most. if only you know that, you would come and find me. if only you understand me, you will msg me.. sigh. Fml.
I will give up in everything. i would return everything to you cause i dunno what to do anymore. I guess Goodbye would be the last word from me.
Lol it has been ages i didnt update this blog but now i update it with my sad stuff again. I feel really disappointed today..
I dunno what to do anymore.FML
FML.FML.FML.
I think blog is really a suitable place for me to express how i feel. Actually today every things go well smoothly i can say.. but then till there someone who talk to me like i did something wrong to him or her. Damn.. cant you talk nicely to someone? I believe everyone do know this manner or simple polite. If you want people talk nicely to you, just talk nicely back to people. Then you will gain respects from others. I'm sure you understand this manner too.
Yea i admit i did something wrong and i'm ready to apologise but if only you talk to people in a polite manner. you dont raise up your voice or what. There will be alternative solutions to solve that problem and you dont have to make it seem like i ruin the whole things.
More over, please appreciate things that people do. Please dont think that others didnt do anything while you are the only one who do all the things. Dont comment on others effort. I didnt say anything when you cant make it or what. where were you when others are working things out? If you think that others cant do things perfectly or as you wanted, why dont you do those things urself? huh?
I'm really disappointed~
what should i update about? Alrite i think i just talk about last night which is thursday night. Actually i wanted to go to watch the new released movie, 2012. But unfortunately that plan didnt worked out. So eunice, rachel and i went to the shop at jalan song- ' Desset Paradise'.
I think it has been four months since the last time i saw her, sent her off at airport to Uitm haha.. I think she doesnt change much haha still the same i guess haha..
last night i ordered ' fig and pear soup'? Lol... eunice ordered ' papaya +ice cream'? and rachel ordered ' some fruit + ice cream'?? Lol now going to the main point.. I FEEL REGRET of going to that shop because none of theirs desserts are nice and they sell their dessert not in a cheap price lol. Rachel them took some pictures of the desserts but i forgot to take the pictures from them.
Well, i think last night from what rachel told me in her experience of studying at outstation really make me feel like wanna join her too.. go study outstation or overseas. from what she told me, i can feel that studying away from home is very fun. The first thing i gonna do if i study outstation~ i gonna try all the delicious food!! hahaha i gonna find where the food paradise and rule the food paradise!! hahahha... i love foods alot k?
that all for now.. lil update for my blog ahhaha byebye
4 mins left to 12 of Nov.
I really dunno what to do.. i thought i would be in my good mood updating my blog but we cant predict anything which gonna happen..
i will try to update it 2molo..
Guess that all for tonight.. Goodnite everyone
Wow it seem like i start to abandon this blog.. i hope i can update this blog more often from now on. Well today i would like to talk about what happen in my life recently.. Well i would say my life is not bad now.. just that there are lots of things going on now.. such as prom and my presentation.. i'm blogging at my school lobby now.. and i going to have my biology class at one. To be continue.. this just a short update for my blog to keep it alive haha
Have a nice day everyone.. Byebye
Yesterday, 24th of Oct was the saddest day in my life. I never such disappointed in my life before. The feeling is just like you gave in so much but you got nothing in return. i wish everything would get better but those hurtful words are still in my mind and they are kept repeating in my mind. still can feel the pain and i duno what to do anymore...
i hope things i did you will remember. I cant do anything if you choose to forget about it.
i never felt so much before and i gave in the most this time.
' LIFE CANT BE ANY BETTER WITHOUT YOU 'Publish Post
This is the table of my practical results.
This is before the presentation start because i wanna to prove that i draw the graph myself but not download from any website
During my presentation.............I felt bit nervous during the presentation. But everything still went well for me i think haha. until my teacher asked me question that i dont really know how to answer haha.. I felt happy afterall. I think i managed to understand the practical better when i was doing the slide haha. it helps a lot haha.
Anyway i would like to thanks my teacher for giving me such great opportunity to do some presentation. I think it benefits me alot. Lol haha thanks to my Bio teacher.
'Accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.'
This is the sentence i would like to share today. I felt so moody today and had lots of things inside my mind. i don't know who i can share my problems. I was alone at home.. so quiet.. nothing to do.. all i can do is just lying down on my bed looking at the ceiling. I felt so tired of many things.. and suddenly that sentence just pop out in my mind. Anyone agree with it? any comments? now it's like 6.30 pm and i think i gonna be very lonely tonight again. Although i didn't eat anything, i dont really feel hungry. Maybe it because i had too many things in my mind. Anyone talk to me pls? Anyone? Accompany me pls??
haih.. haha.. so sien and moody haha sorry for this emo post again haha..
I think everyone would like to have a healthy, growing and lasting relationship but that will be some simple advice from me. I hope it helps.. hahah..
Anyway wish each and everyone have a nice day today!!
This is the sentence i would like to share today. I felt so moody today and had lots of things inside my mind. i don't know who i can share my problems. I was alone at home.. so quiet.. nothing to do.. all i can do is just lying down on my bed looking at the ceiling. I felt so tired of many things.. and suddenly that sentence just pop out in my mind. Anyone agree with it? any comments? now it's like 6.30 pm and i think i gonna be very lonely tonight again. Although i didn't eat anything, i dont really feel hungry. Maybe it because i had too many things in my mind. Anyone talk to me pls? Anyone? Accompany me pls??
haih.. haha.. so sien and moody haha sorry for this emo post again haha..
I think everyone would like to have a healthy, growing and lasting relationship but that will be some simple advice from me. I hope it helps.. hahah..
Anyway wish each and everyone have a nice day today!!
I would say that i love last thursday, 24th of Sept haha..
I woke up quite late in the morning because i got many activites in the afternoon. then I went to fetch Eunice and we went to spring. 1st of all, we went to meet up our classmate, Jackeline at MPH bookstore. She bought a book about music again. Well She is someone i know who is crazy all about music haha.. Her main instrument would be violin. Then those girls started their shopping trip. They went to many shops and got the shirt their wanted.
i was really tired of walking around so we decided to take a rest at secret recipe and i ate chicken curry puff and eunice ate mushroom soup.
After that it was around 5 sth and it was still too early for our dinner. Hence Eunice asked me to drive her to the boutique near Jalan Simpang Tiga. We went to fashion news. Again it all girl clothes. She say she wanna buy belts to match her dress she bought so i was there looking at her trying different fashion of belts. Then after trying almost all the belts there, she finally decided to buy a cream colour belt which i would say nice too.
then we went to other boutique but the clothes there are not nice at all. Then we were hungry and went for dinner. She suggested the place named 'Sharing Planet' so i ask her if she stil remember where the place or not as as u guys know she really bad in direction. hahaha.. She told me it near batu kawa.... go in before shell station..... then u will see a small roundabout.... then go straight..... Lol how am i suppose to know the place with those clues...My gosh.. Anyway i try to guess where the place and we did arrived at the small roundabout but we went to wrong road before we made it to sharing planet..
1st impression of sharing planet give to me is nice and cosy.. I like the atmosphere there and it would be suitable for couples. They served only western cuisine. Eunice ordered Spaghetti Carbonara and i ordered Supreme Chicken Chop meal. Eunice's spaghetti came 1st and i was surprised that it tasted so nice and it so...............CHEEZY! Lol... Then my food came... I was so shocked to see my food. The portion is big. With 3 big pieces of chicken chop.. then three slices of ham meat on top of the chicken chop. Then above the ham meat is the cheese!! Darn it tasted so nice. There a lots of fries and coleslaw too served with the chicken chop too. I love to sauce too... I would say that the chicken chop is much better compared to the chicken chop at ' My Restaurant'.. LOl..The food there is quite cheap compared to other steak restaurant haha..
Well after that we are on our way back..... that the end of our day hahaha
Yeap and IToday i gonna introduce someone to you all. She is my neighbour and my badminton friend.
Her name is Suk Ching. I know all her family members and her brother, Chee Ing is the one who brought me to badminton training and taught me stuff about badminton. Her brother, Ah bao is the one who always bring me around to play badminton. Well she has a badminton family because all her family members play badminton. Well..
On the 20th of sept, My friend, Suk Ching made her life time's decision and she got married!! and i felt happy for her. 20th of Sept was a good date in the chinese lunar calender because i saw number of couples getting married too on that day..
Well Suk Ching is a very nice girl and though she is elder than me, we still do mix along well. She often brought me along with her to play badminton together haha and it's quite fun talking to her. Sometimes she will end up telling me all type of theorys hahaha.. she is cheerful girl and she love to smile haha.. Ohya she very close to her younger brother and that make me wish to have a elder sister hahah..
I didnt manage to take pictures during her wedding dinner. but She looks gorgeous that night in her night gown. i sat at the same table with her elder brother, Ah bao. Ohya i went to her wedding dinner with my mum as my mum consider quite close to her family too.. haha..
Surprisingly i met my Kedah friend, Yeap there.. hahha we were so shocked when we see each other because i didnt know he know Suk Ching too and he dont know that i know Suk Ching haha.. Well i thought i gonna feel bored at the wedding dinner but things changed when Yeap was there too.. hahha He's a hilarious guy!! He drank beers but i drank red wine with my mum hhaha.. recently he joined our badminton group to play at stapok every tuesday night. Last night we finished quite early around 10.10? then we went to the front to talk till almost 11... he's really a funny guy haha.. i will introduce him to you guys next time hahha..
This will just be a little update. Well i would like to talk about my msn's personal message, double hate snake. Lol it's a direct translate from mandarin. let me explain it 1st. It means someone who talked bad about a person behind him but acted nice and close to him when with him. Lol do u guys get it? Or i would call him a two face people. i just know that there one of my friend who i feel that i can trust but actually is a two face people. Lol.. Or i would consider him as a spy. Lol this type of people is quite annoying right. I think ppl around him affected him
It's almost 9p.m now but i havent have my dinner. it's a Saturday night but i'm here.. right in front of my laptop, doing nothing but just facebook-ing? Lol.. I feel very lonely tonight. Well my family is all out. My dad went for jungle treking, my mum went out with aunty, my sis went to tuition. So i'm all alone at home!! It's really a boring night.
Actually my friends were asking me to join them at their youth tonight but i didnt went and i kind of regret about it now. One of the reason i didnt went to the youth because i dont like to feel new in a place and everyone is looking at you differently. Well that come from my experience. I feel so hungry now but i feel so lazy to cook haha.
i really feel so lonely and bored tonight lah wei!!
Is there anyone who can.. ? Talk to me?
~Lonely~
It raining now.. lol.. One of the reason i dont like rain because it makes my car dirty and i have to wash my car after the rain haha.. yeah i think blogging is just for me to release all my unhappiness haha.. Today everything was going fine. Till afternoon, there are things happened which make me really down. I very disppointed wei....
Why am i treated in such way?