My life

it 4am now.. i dunno what am i doing here. i guess i got insomnia haha..
anyway goodnite and sweetdream guys haha
byebye haix... haha
Fml haha

Sorry guys, another sad poem from me. Why all this thing happening to me? I feel really sad and helpless.

In depths of night,
I think of you,
Like waves crushing the silent shore,
You kept coming back,
Disturbing my sleep,
Until the break of dawn...

In depths of night,
Your image,
Fills my empty room,
Bringing back our days,
Our dreams,
Nobody else could understand...

Like sunset fading at dusk,
You left me in solitude,
My life ends,
When memories,
Are scattered,
Like dust...

Today is xmas and merry xmas to everyone to read my blog.
It's a lonely xmas for me. And this suddenly come into my mind.


Continuously seeking fulfillment
Only to have war rage on
Where is the peace in anguish?
Tirelessly I search for a treaty
Empty handed and exhausted
Constantly stumbling through life
Missing a vital part of my soul
Calling for you endlessly
Only to be met with haunting echoes
Trying to push away thoughts of you
But my heart refuses to compromise
Even my flesh aches for you
My spirit seems weak and daunted
But still I wait for you...

I really had a bad week this week and i dont like and enjoy this week at all. haha i thought everything would be better by today, sunday which is the last day of this week. It was ok actually and i start planning since morning.. I get everything done early in the morning. Like my car wash rountine. just because i wanna go out and have fun today. To release all my unhappiness in this one whole week. I tried to plan things out.. planing.. planing.. planing.. In the end things cant work out again. Fml.
I think 'Fml' this phrase really suit my life for now loh. I feel like everythin just turn out like not the way i wanted. Felt kinda disappointed days after days.Fml. I feel that there lots of things had changed but i'm the only one still keep to my old mind and hang on somethings and some hopes. I think it's time for me to do some changes because i really dont like the way i been treated for now. I really got many problems recently and there is no one for me to share my problems with. Fml.
tonight i will be all alone again at home. hate it alot but what to do. Fml.

this will just be a short update from me haha.. i guess this will a better post compared to previous post because today i will not going to talk about how sad is my day. today my day considered ok. But i didnt eat anything for lunch today haha.. kinda hungry but really no mood and appetide to eat anything this afternoon. haha
Tonight i went to Sharing Planet to have dinner with my mum haha.. I ordered the most exp chicken chop there and my mum ordered Double cheesyland haha. Felt so happy haha..
tell you guys something haha.. Whenever i feel down, i will be happy again by eating my fav food. I spent the most on food because food and eating can cheer me up haha.
My mum suggest we go Mr. Ho at crown square for xmas dinner haha.
Mum: Eh let go Mr. Ho for xmas dinner?
Me: The food there is kinda exp.
Mum: You chia me eat right?
Me: *silent* urm can. but loan from you 1st.
Mum: where got like that?
Me: can. i will pay u back afer i start working.
Mum: ohh alright then. Sure. Pay triple. Deal?
Me: Deal hahaha...
Both of us laughed. Actually i like to talk to my mum haha..
Well that all about my day today. Goodbye..

Actually i wanted to make things better today but everything is screwed up again. Fml. I always think that i can make things better but i always wrong about that. I only know how to make things worse but not better. Sigh haix.. i think i dunno how to be happy anymore. i dunno who the one can be there for me. I always hope for things can turn out like how i wanted, but disappointment come again and again. i started to afraid to give any hope in everthing, started to lose my confidence in everything. i feel that i should be alone and by myself.Fml.
My life is like getting worse days by days. if only there is someone who understand and would come to me and comfort me, share my problems. I think no one will be there for me. I hate loneliness the most. if only you know that, you would come and find me. if only you understand me, you will msg me.. sigh. Fml.
I will give up in everything. i would return everything to you cause i dunno what to do anymore. I guess Goodbye would be the last word from me.

Lol it has been ages i didnt update this blog but now i update it with my sad stuff again. I feel really disappointed today..
I dunno what to do anymore.FML

FML.FML.FML.

I think blog is really a suitable place for me to express how i feel. Actually today every things go well smoothly i can say.. but then till there someone who talk to me like i did something wrong to him or her. Damn.. cant you talk nicely to someone? I believe everyone do know this manner or simple polite. If you want people talk nicely to you, just talk nicely back to people. Then you will gain respects from others. I'm sure you understand this manner too.

Yea i admit i did something wrong and i'm ready to apologise but if only you talk to people in a polite manner. you dont raise up your voice or what. There will be alternative solutions to solve that problem and you dont have to make it seem like i ruin the whole things.
More over, please appreciate things that people do. Please dont think that others didnt do anything while you are the only one who do all the things. Dont comment on others effort. I didnt say anything when you cant make it or what. where were you when others are working things out? If you think that others cant do things perfectly or as you wanted, why dont you do those things urself? huh?

I'm really disappointed~

what should i update about? Alrite i think i just talk about last night which is thursday night. Actually i wanted to go to watch the new released movie, 2012. But unfortunately that plan didnt worked out. So eunice, rachel and i went to the shop at jalan song- ' Desset Paradise'.
I think it has been four months since the last time i saw her, sent her off at airport to Uitm haha.. I think she doesnt change much haha still the same i guess haha..
last night i ordered ' fig and pear soup'? Lol... eunice ordered ' papaya +ice cream'? and rachel ordered ' some fruit + ice cream'?? Lol now going to the main point.. I FEEL REGRET of going to that shop because none of theirs desserts are nice and they sell their dessert not in a cheap price lol. Rachel them took some pictures of the desserts but i forgot to take the pictures from them.
Well, i think last night from what rachel told me in her experience of studying at outstation really make me feel like wanna join her too.. go study outstation or overseas. from what she told me, i can feel that studying away from home is very fun. The first thing i gonna do if i study outstation~ i gonna try all the delicious food!! hahaha i gonna find where the food paradise and rule the food paradise!! hahahha... i love foods alot k?
that all for now.. lil update for my blog ahhaha byebye

4 mins left to 12 of Nov.

I really dunno what to do.. i thought i would be in my good mood updating my blog but we cant predict anything which gonna happen..

i will try to update it 2molo..

Guess that all for tonight.. Goodnite everyone

Wow it seem like i start to abandon this blog.. i hope i can update this blog more often from now on. Well today i would like to talk about what happen in my life recently.. Well i would say my life is not bad now.. just that there are lots of things going on now.. such as prom and my presentation.. i'm blogging at my school lobby now.. and i going to have my biology class at one. To be continue.. this just a short update for my blog to keep it alive haha
Have a nice day everyone.. Byebye

Yesterday, 24th of Oct was the saddest day in my life. I never such disappointed in my life before. The feeling is just like you gave in so much but you got nothing in return. i wish everything would get better but those hurtful words are still in my mind and they are kept repeating in my mind. still can feel the pain and i duno what to do anymore...
i hope things i did you will remember. I cant do anything if you choose to forget about it.
i never felt so much before and i gave in the most this time.

' LIFE CANT BE ANY BETTER WITHOUT YOU '

I would say that i love last thursday, 24th of Sept haha..
I woke up quite late in the morning because i got many activites in the afternoon. then I went to fetch Eunice and we went to spring. 1st of all, we went to meet up our classmate, Jackeline at MPH bookstore. She bought a book about music again. Well She is someone i know who is crazy all about music haha.. Her main instrument would be violin. Then those girls started their shopping trip. They went to many shops and got the shirt their wanted.
i was really tired of walking around so we decided to take a rest at secret recipe and i ate chicken curry puff and eunice ate mushroom soup.
After that it was around 5 sth and it was still too early for our dinner. Hence Eunice asked me to drive her to the boutique near Jalan Simpang Tiga. We went to fashion news. Again it all girl clothes. She say she wanna buy belts to match her dress she bought so i was there looking at her trying different fashion of belts. Then after trying almost all the belts there, she finally decided to buy a cream colour belt which i would say nice too.
then we went to other boutique but the clothes there are not nice at all. Then we were hungry and went for dinner. She suggested the place named 'Sharing Planet' so i ask her if she stil remember where the place or not as as u guys know she really bad in direction. hahaha.. She told me it near batu kawa.... go in before shell station..... then u will see a small roundabout.... then go straight..... Lol how am i suppose to know the place with those clues...My gosh.. Anyway i try to guess where the place and we did arrived at the small roundabout but we went to wrong road before we made it to sharing planet..
1st impression of sharing planet give to me is nice and cosy.. I like the atmosphere there and it would be suitable for couples. They served only western cuisine. Eunice ordered Spaghetti Carbonara and i ordered Supreme Chicken Chop meal. Eunice's spaghetti came 1st and i was surprised that it tasted so nice and it so...............CHEEZY! Lol... Then my food came... I was so shocked to see my food. The portion is big. With 3 big pieces of chicken chop.. then three slices of ham meat on top of the chicken chop. Then above the ham meat is the cheese!! Darn it tasted so nice. There a lots of fries and coleslaw too served with the chicken chop too. I love to sauce too... I would say that the chicken chop is much better compared to the chicken chop at ' My Restaurant'.. LOl..The food there is quite cheap compared to other steak restaurant haha..
Well after that we are on our way back..... that the end of our day hahaha

This will just be a little update. Well i would like to talk about my msn's personal message, double hate snake. Lol it's a direct translate from mandarin. let me explain it 1st. It means someone who talked bad about a person behind him but acted nice and close to him when with him. Lol do u guys get it? Or i would call him a two face people. i just know that there one of my friend who i feel that i can trust but actually is a two face people. Lol.. Or i would consider him as a spy. Lol this type of people is quite annoying right. I think ppl around him affected him

It's almost 9p.m now but i havent have my dinner. it's a Saturday night but i'm here.. right in front of my laptop, doing nothing but just facebook-ing? Lol.. I feel very lonely tonight. Well my family is all out. My dad went for jungle treking, my mum went out with aunty, my sis went to tuition. So i'm all alone at home!! It's really a boring night.
Actually my friends were asking me to join them at their youth tonight but i didnt went and i kind of regret about it now. One of the reason i didnt went to the youth because i dont like to feel new in a place and everyone is looking at you differently. Well that come from my experience. I feel so hungry now but i feel so lazy to cook haha.
i really feel so lonely and bored tonight lah wei!!
Is there anyone who can.. ? Talk to me?

~Lonely~

It raining now.. lol.. One of the reason i dont like rain because it makes my car dirty and i have to wash my car after the rain haha.. yeah i think blogging is just for me to release all my unhappiness haha.. Today everything was going fine. Till afternoon, there are things happened which make me really down. I very disppointed wei....
Why am i treated in such way?

Hello everyone. I did not blog for quite a long time because i had my own problems and was really down because of that. Sorry everyone.. i think i gonna continue with moody blog post again. Well This few days I was really really really really disappointed again and again. The feeling is like so pissed off. I need someone to talk to. I kept lots my things in my mind and there no one there for me to talk to. Sigh..
After all, i still think that i was unfair treated. There no one understand how i feel and how depressed i am. Sigh.. I dunno if i should write all my problem out here or not. but i think sooner or later i will because i afraid i cant tahan. Sigh. Why am i been treated in such a way? Why? Why? I'm really pissed off sometimes.
Sigh nvm. The conclusion is 'I Feel Sien of MY LIFE'

Tortoise is sad..
Tortoise feel like leaving this world...
Forget about this tortoise from now on..

Hey guys, i feel really down now... I feel so helpless now..
I guess this would be the most down moment i going through now.. I cant believe that this is happening to me and i really disappointed with it.

Why??!! This would be the question that i would like to ask. I'm sorry

I dunno how i gonna handle my badminton competition tonight with this type of mood. Tonight my team need to win so move into the next game. If we lose everything will be over. Someone help me pls...

Hey guys just wanna update you guys with Sarawak Energy Badminton Competition held at Persatuan Badminton Bumiputra Sarawak(PBBS). In this competition, you can find almost all the good player in Kuching. Well, good news is Our team ' The Dukes' participated in this competition and this would be the second day of our competition.
This would be one of the biggest team event competition held in Kuching and it only allows 16 team to join this competition.
this would be the update for last night.
The Dukes vs Instacom. Result o-5
Well Instacom managed to have a all star team because the players Instacom are ex-sukma player, ex-state player, and currently sarawak no.1 and sarawak no.2. Darn they really have a all star team. Can u guys imagine? Instacom is just like REAL MADRID in football event. lol.. They are the champion for last year too haha. so we are quite unlucky to be in the same group with them haha. Well for The Dukes, i think we have to forget about last night because we will have a tough game in this afternoon 2.30pm.
Second game- The Dukes vs Everspring Sport. Result '??-??'
Well there are many strong player in Everspring too. it going to be a real tough match for us.
I really hope we can make it and win over them.

Well just hope you guys will support our team
' The Dukes!! '
Go! Go! Dukes! Dukes!

Recently things really do not go well for me.. I feel so tired and helpless. I really do not know what to do. I make ppl down and unhappy. i make ppl disappointed in me. i made ppl feel that i cant contribute anything. Sigh.. I dunno what should i do now.
There are just many things are kept inside.
is there anyone can be there for me?
just to listen to my problems?

Good morning guys! Urm what can i say about today? Well i currently updating my blog in my school computer lab. It's because today when i reached my biology class, we are just informed that our biology lecturer is not in today! Lol but many exercise was given by our head of lecturer. Well my classmate decided to do their work in the class but the lazy me decided to go down to play ping pong. There were ppl playing ping pong so came to the computer lab to chit chat with my friends. Most of them are busy doing their assignment so only left the elsie who can talk to me. She really beh song today because of her group members? Go read her blog! Lol..

Well really feel so tired today maybe because didnt sleep well last night or there lots of things bothering me recently.
Anyway i gonna stop here for lunch haha. I will update my day again by tonight. Have a nice day :)

Today wasnt a good day for me. I dunno why. I have a mixed feeling today.
Well i think i started to have the mixed feeling since around 9 plus. i wanna reach school early but then traffic jam caused me to fetch someone late and i was late for school.
Well so moody today. Can anyone talk to me pls to make me feel better?

I didnt ate much for lunch today because of my moody mood. Sob

Urm what can i say about today?
Let me think.. Today things are kinda good from the time i wake up until evening 6. I just home from dinner with my mum and from grocery shopping, then something happened which turn me bit not happy. My mood turned like from the top to the bottom. Then i went to take a short nap because i wanna make myself to feel better. Some people might think that it's just a small thing or it's nothing. Well all i could say is that I'M JUST WORRY. I dunno what to say.
I think you guys wont understand how i feel now..

Darn i just sososososo WORRY. Sigh..
Can anyone talk to me? can anyone listen to my problem? can anyone understand how i feel now? Sigh..

Goodnight everyone.

Today i started my 2nd semester school day after two months of study break and holiday break. I felt excited to come back to school because i can feel that my brain started to rust after the long break from school. Well everything still remain the same and there is no much changes after all. Just that our lecturer told us that this semester will be more challenging because the thing that we gonna study is gonna be harder and tougher. My timetable changed too. I dont have class on friday anymore for my course, but i have Moral on friday!

Today i almost late for school. My class started at 8.30 but i only woke up at 8.10. Well can you imagine that there only 20 mins for me to get ready and drive to school? lol.. The only thing i hope is there no traffic jam near the trafiic light outside my house. lol.. I managed to reach school around 8.25 but everything is in a rush haha.. When i went in the door, our lobby is full of students. Well i can see that everyone is happy to be back in school again. haha.. I used to have classes in room 3 but now my class changed to room 2! haha a bigger room with a bigger table. I had my chemistry and maths class in the morning and my biology class in the afternoon. I almost slept in biology class. haha.. well everything still goes well though haha. after that i had student council meeting in the auditorium.

Then i went to library to find my friends and talked to them haha my friends have class at 4 so now i end up updating my blog in computer lab.

Gonna update this 2nite. because i gtg to help my school to do something haha. alrite byebye.

well nothing much happened today. I went to music club meeting at 10.30 in the morning then was really ' impressed' to see how the meeting went on. Anyway it was really a fun meeting and full of laughter. haha everyone is like so happy in the meeting haha. Then Catherine played the video of ' Ken lee' and ' Tuts my barreh'. By that time everyone burst into laughter.

The meeting end around 12 sth. Then i went home to take my lunch. After that i went to airport to send RACHEL SIM OFF HAHA.She is leaving to Shah Alam. Well i can see that her PR is good because many of her friends come and send her off. We talked at Starbucks and took some pictures before rachel left off. Then the touching part came. Rachel hugged everyone Except me before she leave haha. Well i feel quite sad when i see she left because i know i gonna miss her laughter haha urm and her silly actions and her trademark-shortness for me haha. Well she is a good friend and nice to hang around with haha.She dont get angry easily too. But i did not Cry ok? haha..well my friends are leaving one after another. lol kinda sad haha.. esp my +2 which refer to bernerd and dennis at Labuan haha. Kinda miss them haha. that the thing and feeling we have to face after our form 5 haha.

well after that i went to school because i got moral class in the afternoon from 2 to 5. I hope teacher will not give back our mid-term paper but then teacher still did it. I was happy because i did not fail in it haha.Moral class was not dull anymore. i think everyone enjoyed the class today haha because of all the jokes from my classmates. Lol.. well i guess that all for my day today haha.

well for Rachel Sim, i wish her all the best in her study and do come back to find us ok! Dont forget about us ok! Come back Kuching whenever you got ur holiday ok! haha. Remember to take care of urself there haha and i wonder will she grow tall there? haha we will see when she back haha.. GOODBYE MY SHOPAHOLIC FRIEND, RACHEL!! HAHAHA LOL..

HAHAHA HELLO EVERYONE!! AH WELL.. i would to tell you guys that today is a special day to me. I felt very happy since last night , at 12am and is still very happy til now. lol well for my close friends, they would know why today is a special day for me. For those who dunno, guess why is it a special day for me haha..
Felt really excited today.. yeah!! so wish you guys have a happy and nice day too haha..

lol on the saturday night.. I dunno what wrong with me and i released my anger and showed everyone my bad temper. Well i would like to apologise about it guys. i know i should have contolled my temper.. I will try to control my temper next time. I just really dunno what happen tonight darn. and for him or her.. i really dunno why you changed so much recently. well you arent the 1 that i know few years ago. i think you changed a lot and i didnt know what make u changed. well urm will update soon haha tata byebye

i really feel stressed of my moral assignment!! i dont really know how to do and the due data is on the 19th of June and the mid-term of my moral test is on that day too. It's like WTF. I dunno whether can i make it to hand it in o not.. i hope i can. so sien le haha when i thought about it haha. Many of my diploma friends are going to have their test soon haha..I hope they will do well in their test haha. Jia you to my diploma friends which include Bluetooth, Catherine, Karen, Justin, Paul, Michelle, Ek Han, Manager, Margeret. lol i know bluetooth very hardworking cause he brought his notes to damai to study haha. Jiayou ohh to my friends haha..you guys can do it de la haha..

Today is the day before our school's Gawai celebration day. I think we still have lots of things to do on the decoration stuff and i still have to practise for my ' GAWAI DANCE' !! I CANT BELIEVE THAT I GONNA DANCE FOR TOMORROW! Well for those who wanna watch my dance, just pay the entrance fee for rm3 and go in the auditorium and you can watch my great great dance!! I surely will be laughed over by my badminton gang. I hope bluetooth wont took any picture of it and show it to them. lol besides that i think i gonna to act in Catherine's drama too. Well firstly i was given the character of the PRINCE but then hor.. i think i will be killed because the princess is not 'akhem akhem'. so Cat changed a character for me and now I'M GONNA BE THE KING!! HAHA.. BOW TO ME!! I will have my servant for the drama haha.. lol so please be there to watch my act and my dance haha. GUYS SUPPORT ME YEA!! but not to laugh at me okok? haha

But Bluetooth told Henry about the dance already and they start to laugh at me already.. i think this time cham liao la!! lol..

Come and watch my dance!! Come support my dance!! Please!!

Those who coming to watch.. just write your name down in my comment box yeah!! haha

I think everyone know the importance of the word 'sorry'. It is a very important word when you did a mistake and you would like people to forgive you and keep a good impression about you. I believe everyone would agree with me that everyone surely will have his or her ego-ness in him/her self. i did not say that ego is not a good thing. What i trying to tell is please dont have your ego too over till you not willing to apologise to others when you did something worng. well this is just a short post. I will edit it soon..

cause i gonna to practise my drama soon.. byebye tata..

I'm back to edit this topic again because i really need to tell someone about their egoness which will not bring any benefits to them. You will see what will start to happen behind you. maybe not in front of you but things will slowly start to change behind you. It's a definitely manner for you to apologise and say 'SORRY' to make things get better when you did something wrong and say something wrong to anyone. Like just now.. i didnt realised that i said wrong thing to bluetooth and my friends straight away tell me that i said just wrong thing to him. I quickly called bluetooth and apologise to him. I mean why is it so hard for you to say the word sorry when it can helps to make things better. Well sometimes ego-ness can make you guys loss your friends. PLEASE DONT ALWAYS THINK THAT YOU ALWAYS ARE THE BEST AND THE RIGHT ONE. it will only helps to make things get worse. AND THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU ACT. Things will turn worse when you start to act like you are the best and ego. When you did something wrong to anyone, you might didnt realise it but you should realise when he or she treated you differently, you should try to find it out and say sorry if you really did a mistake.
Besides that, i really beh song today when my friend told me his or her friend talk in a rude way to him or her. Please la hor.. we are friends ok? you dont expect ppl to forgive you everytime you talked rudely to ppl ok?. Learn from your mistake and learn to respect your friends but not to use your friend ok? well i learnt something from my friend, bluetooth. he told me that no need to hirau those who did wrong thing to you unless he or she apologise. I strongly agree with that.
I hope some ppl will learn something when they read this topic..
Try to control your ego. lol well.. why i write this is to tell that i'm of the victim and he or she did not apologise to me after he o she did something wrong to me. so guys i hope you guys will remember to say sorry when you guys did something wrong but not to let ppl wait for you to say sorry. it's just a simple moral value.
Gonna sleep soon Goodnite!!

Feel free to leave comments yeah!!

sigh.. guys.. i had just sat for my two paper. biology and chemistry. sigh.. kinda disappointed with it. i dont think i can manage to score in this two paper. i feel so frustrated after the test. Friday would be my math paper. I hope i can score in maths. those two paper can make me disappointed enough to jump off the building. SIEN...... I hope things can get better. i'm really so tired..

Well this the love poem for my loved one.. lol..


Eyes of beauty that pierce the skin
a heart full of love that lays within
skin so soft and smooth to touch
are just a few things about you, i have come to love
the flow of your hair and and heart warming smile
the feeling when i hold you a while
the sweet nothings and i love you's
and all the little things you do
the smile you bring when you smile at me
never has my heart felt so free
all the small talk or none at all
i even love the goodnight calls
i love everything about you
in every single way
like whenever where together
i would love to hold you in my arm
or just to sit in silence arm in arm
a love so strong that can't be harmed
i love you more than words can describe
so much love you just couldn't hide

Urm today i would like to talk about myself.. i found that there bit difference in me myself recently. i think i became a quiet guy and would like to keep things to myself. i would rather keep to myself than spilling my thought out. For examples, i would like to tell my friends that how not happy am i but then after awhile i just kept quiet and kept everything. I dunno whether it's a good thing o not but then i did feel the difference in myself.
urm i also feel quite stressed recently and i didnt tell anyone about it. My exam is coming soon guys. just arond the corner. i feel so unprepared and i dunno what to do with it.. i felt soso frus..
Then this turn me become a guy who would like to keep things ki. lol it's very hard to explain in words..
i feel so tired recently..
well does it consider emo ma? i dont think so gua.. haha i just wanna tell you guys how i feel recently haha... there something wrong with this tortoise............... SOB

hey guys i will update my blog asap bout my badminton competition at Swinburne. Haha i will try to upload some picture for you guys. well i made into the semis in men single event which is a real surprise for me haha lol... i expected to do better in double event but then my double was knocked down at second round. I felt quite disappointed with it.. sob sob....

Tonight, I will be going Swinburne for my badminton competition.
Remember to support me! I hope I will do well in this competition.
I will be playing against a malay in my singles tonight around 7.30.
please be there to support me yea!! Wish me luck!
After my single, i will have my double at 10.00.. haha and against malay too.. urm hope i can make it to the 2nd round.
For my single, i will be meeting an ex- state player if i can make it into the 2nd round as he is the 4th seed for single event. So you can say that how bad is my draw. My draw is better than yiphowe's draw. He will be meeting the ex-SBA player in the first round while I'll only be meeting the ex-state player in the 2nd round. Good luck to yiphowe! Jia you! Remember to add oil hahah!

TAMBAH MINYAK!

i'm going to join a baddie competition soon. This Saturday.. Haha.. it's Swinburne invitation badminton competition. This time i will be partnering back my old partner, Kevin in this cominc competition. lolz.. and i will be participating in single event too. i know it's unbelievable haha i cant believe that i playing my single back haha. i put on lots of weight recently. and i think FAT is the only word that you can use to describe me haha.. well i hope you guys can support me for my single haha i might let you guys down but i will try my best and i trying to control my food cosumption recently haha. trying to tahan for the supper part haha.
I will be given a school shirt for representing my school in that competition haha.. i wanted to have a school t-shirt long time ago haha esp the RED one. It's so nice and i love it a lot. haha.. i guess there will be many people joining the competition this saturday. haha it will be very fun i guess.
hope i can win something in this competition.
i trying my best to recover from my sickness recently. i have been sicked since last week and i played badly in my last few matched. i cant even believe that how badly i played haha and i always feel like vomitting during the game. i drink lots of water recently.. just to feel better.. and ate some medicine. haha i hope i can play well tonight yea haha.

I will try my best in this coming competition. I hope my campus friends can aso support those who joining the competition. we wont let you guys down haha..

I think there's quite a number of my friends chose to go for their Pre-u course at matriculation in Labuan.
i dunno whether matriculation would be a right choice o not.. but from what i heard is all about the negative part of matriculation. 1st of all.. will government give you guys the degree courses that you guys wanted after you finish your matriculation even if you guys scored well? If the course that given to you is the course that you don't want.. well i think we are going to meet each other in private university again.. and is the matriculation school good? i have no offense in this. From what i heard.. there always no water supply in Labuan, it's because labuan has it's water supply from Sabah and hence there's only limited water supply so you might have to live with a pail of water for two or three days. There was a incident when 128 students who applied for medicine course were not given the medicine course and matriculation students were considered as the lucky 1 and got into medicine courses but then after 5 years of studies, there are 7 of them failed which was a very shocking news for the medical field in Malaysia and government had left out all the students who are capable to do better than them. Matriculation is not recognized world wide but STPM is recognized world wide.

I didn't mean that matriculation isn't a good choice. well it's up to you guys to decide your future. wish you guys all the best.

Well sorry guys i am going to post something unhappy today. Today i just got my trail exam paper back and i dont think that i done that well in it and i'm not happy with the results i got. lolz well my disappointed mood is back again haha. This trail i didnt really prepare for it and only studied for it in last minutes. i should have be well prepared for the exam. so guys never leave ur study to the minutes.

I was really in my bad mood today. everything doesnt go well for me today. I guess for those who know me well, they would know that i will be really down when i didnt score the results i wanted. They will just like come to me and comfort me and tell me to do better next time when they saw me acted differently. lolz i can be really moody with my results. haha.. I just really need comfort and support now.. and i dunno where can i get it from.. from my acquaitance? lolz.. impossible. i think only those who really know me would know how to make me forget my results. well today i acted differently as my results wasnt that good. i just felt frustrated and disappointed. The response that i got is ' can you please dont act like that' ? i really dunno what should i feel.. i feel like what the... lolz maybe he or she thought that i was releasing my anger at him or her. Those who knows me.. they would know i was disappointed with myself and angry at myself. i really tired today. there's like no one comforting me and i had some quarel somemore.. lolz my bad mood could make me skip my meal. well i just skipped my lunch. i just have no appetide for my meal in my bad mood. well i could eat a lot ok?? haha.. can you guys imagine how hungry i going to be if i skipped my meal? haha well i will only feel hungry after my bad mood gone.

Today my college was quiet.. it was because every of my diploma's frens is having their exams.. I went back to college after my lunch and i saw them at the computer lab. Everyone is STUDYING and asked me not to disturb them because they are ' pek ceh'! They are just frustrated and worried about their exams. well today there's no one who is free to play ping pong with me.. so i just played computer and watched my friends studying. lolz.. Then Bluetooth or Jun Ern came into the lab and started to ask ppl around about the exam later then there a girl came and Michelle asked her to teach her ways to answer the question but then Jun Ern disagreed with the gal who just came, lolz the gal just asked Jun Ern to' listen to her 1st'. Then Jun Ern like ' kek tiok'. I guess that gal is famous for her phrase' you listen 1st' she wanted ppl to listen to her opinion 1st before she listened to others. After that i went to start off my class..

After my class, i went to the lobby and saw Karen playing ping pong with Jamie, then i got really excited because well.. just to tell you guys..i really love to play ping pong recently. i think i addicted to ping pong haha.. Then i sat down and waited for my turn. I played against Karen. She is considered one of the good ping pong player at our school. While the game continued, i think i lost 4 games to her and i started to win over her for 2 games and then i lost again. She taught me lots of skills and be steady. well thanks Karen.. Then Ek Han and Jun Ern finished their test and came to the lobby too.. well i guess it's ping pong time again. haha.. unfortunately i have to go because it's seem like gonna rain.

lolz today is our 1st meeting with our new student council's adviser. she is a strict lady and she would just follow her rules in doing her things. 1st of all.. we are waiting for other 3 member to attend for the meeting. then our adviser said that it is going against her rules to be late for the meetings. we all feel scared and nervous when the meeting was going on. I looked at my friend, Ek Han.. he looked quited calm then i also try to act calm like him. then we started off without the 3 members.. but then they managed as soon as the meeting started!! just in time!

Here our adviser goes.. She asked our secretary to note down the minutes of the meeting. " meeting started off at 3p.m." Then she explained to us that we have to follow every of her proposal's format. she told our secretary that the format he used in writing out the proposal was wrong and told him must follow hers format next time. Then she showed us all the forms that we needed to use if we wanna to initiate a club. then now.. i realized something with my friend who is our treasurer sitting beside me.. he was laughing all the time while our adviser talking. then i asked him is that any funny point bout our advisor's talk. then he stopped to laugh. lolz.. a funny guy.. Our adviser reminded us to update the website for the new student intake. then she gave a senario about what will happened and the logics about it and bla bla bla...

Then our adviser gave us a suggestion and told us that she wanna to initiate a debate club in our school. she claimed that she had lots of debate's background. well i can know from the way she talked to us.. she asked what does a person who debate do.. she then told us that debate is just like fire off your English just like how you fire your machine gun. Our adviser then tell us that she need committee members for her debate club and she just take our student council as her debate club's members.. she say she will trained us to become a ' debater' and polish our english. she would like to send a debate team out to represent UCSI for debate competition. I think our new adviser is the ambitious type of lady. lolz.. it's good for someone to have a target.

Then our secretary suggested us to start a drama club and that idea make our adviser excited and she would like to add in anime club too... then i ask her what is anime.. isit sth like cartoon or what.. for example the cartoon of ' one piece'? then she replied me that she gonna give me two piece. lolz.. then i asked isit like the cartoon 'hamtaro'? then she laughed. then she used her favourite phrase on me! this is her favourite phrase.. " i gonna hang you on a banana tree or coconut tree!!" and she claimed that isnt hard for her to find banana tree or a coconut tree in Kuching. Then i asked her that is anime sth like DOTA? then she thought that i trying to fool her. She answered that " you dont think that i dont know anything bout DOTA. I know things like counter-strike too.. i'm quite a up to date lady" it is so funny that i almost burst to tears laughing. Everyone laughed too.

After 1 hours plus in the meeting.. after we discussed everything and agreed with the time we have to meet tomorrow then she dismissed the meeting. then everyone left.

Can i know who are you?? i dont like ppl leave a question mark for me to guess who are them or what? i mean if you wanna talk properly to me, why dont you just use your real name? there nothing to hide right? so just let me know your name and i will let you know more bout me and you dont have to guess anything anymore.. i will tell...

Lolz i think JPA's interview is now a hot topic.. everyone is getting ready for the interview and discussing what to wear on the day of interview.. well the only thing that i can do is just keep quiet while others are discussing the 'hot topic'. Again i still no that happy..
This JPA made me don't feel like study anymore.. it's like it gave me lots of disappointment and it's like somehow i did not got some recognition for my results..

I got 11A's but why am i not selected for the interview?? I think i scored more A's than those who selected for interview.. i am really disappointed la.. I hope our government will organize more scholarship which will be fair enough for the next generation...

Why?? Arent you happy with me? I'm sorry...

Moody again.. everything was ok today and quite happy today but everything changed during lunch time..

I started to lose confidence in myself.. am i that lousy or what? am i stupid o what? Everyone is going for the interview but not me... i feel so disappointed now.. i feel like wana lock myself in my room now.. lolz for those who got selected.. of cause they will like say it's nth 1 lar.. and it's not the end of the day.. Those who scored good result, they tell me it's ok and SPM is not everything.. I dont think they really know how i feel.. It is because they did well in their exam.. GUys you will difference if we exchange our situation..........................................................

lolz.. i think most of my classmates are selected for JPA's interview.. It's because they scored very well in their SPM. Congrats to all of you guys who been selected for the interview.

Unfortunately.. or not to say unfortunately.. because of my suck results,
i have not been selected for the interview.. How sad it is..
It's aso too late to regret by now..

well just to wish you guys good luck!! All the best..

That night after Spm result is released, i think Yvonne know that i am moody. then i told her that i felt disappointed with my results. Then she gave me this pepatah.. i think it comforts me a lot!!

I felt frustrated now guys. Everyone is like discussing....

I went to swim last Thurday which was one day before my Sarawak age group badminton competition. i went with Bernerd and Dennis. When we reached, we had to pay rm5.50 for the entrance fee and we get one tin of 100 plus in return. How smart Stampark swimming pool made moneys nowadays haha. Then we went to changing room to change our swimming trunk. I'm so shy tat i dont dare to go to the pool with my swmming trunks. so i only take off my pants when we were at the side of the pool. Bernerd asked us to go take a quick shower before get into the pool but then i refused to listen to him so i just jumped into the pool. Dennis followed me.
The funny thing is there some guys went to take shower too while Bernerd is taking his quick shower and then Bernerd like stared at the two guys from top to bottom. i didnt know Bernerd changed that much haha. then we all was in the pool. i totally didnt know how to swim. i juz walked in the pool. by tat time, Bernerd started to show us his pro-ness in swimming and wanna challenge me in swimming. but then i asked him not to waste his time. haha... Then it's Dennis's turn to show us his skill in swimming. We gave him a nickname' motorboat' after we saw he swam because you can see how strong his legs kick or flap in the pool and everyone is shocked and stopped to swim and look at him. but then he didnt know and continue his action. I kept on laughing. Then it's my turn.. i try to learn some skill to swim but then i cant swim far.Then we swim to the side of the pool. Bernerd asked us to do stupid things again which is try to put our legs up at the side of the pool while our body remain floating in the pool. i did not it but Dennis who like challenges accecpted Bernerd's suggestion. well again they attracted people attention haha..then i'm bored. so i'm bored so i thought of some stupid ideas which is let see who can swim like a whale? frog? dolphin? again and again we got ppl's attention again lolz..
Then we try to swim to the other side of the pool. while we swim, suddenly we saw a huge body swam past us and we stopped and stood in inside the pool. and then the guy stopped and stood up. i saw some ' dragon' and 'sun' tatoo and Bernerd and Dennis complimented that he had nice tatoos loudly. I quite scared and shocked. what i can do is you can see my head slowly go down into the water and move away from them.
that all for now. to be continue....................................................

i dont really know what to write haha but when i went to read others blogs. its like wow! how come there so many things can others can write bout but i could not. so now i trying my best to write haha.. well i cant wait for this coming saturday!! i'm sure that it'll be fun and i wanna take lots of pics to update in my blog haha.. i'll tell you guys more bout it after i'm back haha.

i'm quite moody today. if only there someone know the reason why i'm moody.

This is the birthday card from my sister and me....

My mum's birthday fall on valentine day. Yeap 14th of february!!
well i bought secret recipe cake for my mum. It is OREO CHEESE CAKE!! It is because my mum love to eat cheese cake.
Yip Howe bought other cake for my mum!! but unfortunately i forgot to take pic of it.. Thanks howe!!

lolz just to tell you guys something.. This was my 1st time brought a girl out for a valentine dinner lolz..... and i enjoyed the dinner

Guys, i had a great moment on valentine's day!! I will tell you guys soon.. haha how your valentine's day? mind to share with me?

My Bobby is cute right? Anyone agree with me?

Bobby found a tortoise outside my house then he
bring the tortoise found in my car porch in his mouth haha!!

I named it lucky!!

Eunice using my blog..

Eunice here. MEOWWWWWWWW.

Merry Christmas! Want to drink teh-c-peng? Wei Yei chia!!

hello i finally have my own blog haha.. i totally dunno how to create a blog.. but my frenz helped me out haha.. i will update it asap haha..so pls wait yea ok guys haha..

i created my blog guys..